Don’t abandon yourself

What was your favourite toy growing up?

Mine was a pink bear called Bearie (I know… my creativity ran deep from long ago).

I loved Bearie, I took care of him.

Sometimes Bearie would get dirty but it would never, EVER have occured to me to throw him into the trash or abandon him because of it. I would just clean him up and then continue loving him.

So easy to do that for a toy,

But so hard to do that for myself.

I would get excited and put a project or class or idea on my calendar then later when the time to do it came up, I decided it wasn’t worth it.

My excuses always seemed pretty convincing:

“I don’t have the energy right now. I’ll do it later.”

"This isn't the right time for me"

“It’s not really a big deal to do it next week.”

“No one is going to notice if I don’t do it at this moment.”

I told myself variations of: my commitments to myself are not important.

Because I'm not important.

I'm realizing now that it's not about the thing that I do, but the practice of treating myself with at least the same love and respect that I would treat Bearie.

Listen to me:

DO NOT ABANDON YOURSELF.

Your worth and your dreams ARE important. YOU are important.

Keep on showing yourself that’s true.

Love,

Alana