Being Passive In Life

Hello World,

I always felt like I was just passively going through my life.

I followed the steps laid ahead of me in high school,

went to university and chose a major I could be good at,

went to Japan to teach English,

stayed for five years to avoid making a decision about What Next,

backpacked,

came back and got a predictable job,

paid my rent and my bills,

went to parties,

and on dates,

I didn't do anything "wrong" but, I don't know,

I was just floating around, trying to find something to grasp onto, to find a direction, or a purpose in life.

I just… felt like something was missing.

I wanted more but didn’t exactly know what that was.

I tried to tell myself that I should be grateful and convinced myself that things were fine.

But the discomfort was there. I didn’t know it at the time, but I was trying to escape this feeling by

• drinking too much

• losing myself on social media

• drifting from relationship to relationship

• people pleasing

• being a perfectionist

• finding more and more external things to amuse and define me

The things I did to manage this discomfort just left me hungover, ashamed and/or depleted, and more convinced than ever that I was just…meh. And that life was just…bleh.

That I was just STUCK.

What I really wanted though, was the feeling of agency in my own life.

I wanted to embody myself and feel like I was living the life that I wanted.

The advice I found to do this was “just love yourself” - but that always felt a bit ambiguous to me.

Ok, yeah, I can light some candles and take a bath,

but that didn’t really solve my deeper issues of:

• not having a relationship with myself

• not trusting myself

• passivity in my own life

I didn’t actually know what to do to change how I was feeling. I didn’t know if there was anything I could do. Maybe some people just do and some people (ME!) just don’t?

When I found coaching, it all changed.

I understood WHY I was feeling the way I was. 

I understood how that reason was my thinking.

And I understood how that was OPTIONAL.

It was such a relief to know that the way I was thinking was creating the way I was living, and that I myself had total control over that.

What a relief to know that I didn’t have to remain passive in my own life, and there was a way out.

If you are feeling stuck in your life, know that you absolutely can take control of it. Let me show you how.