Spending Time with Myself
Hello World,
What is your relationship with yourself?
I used to feel lonely a lot, and I would try and fill that void with relationships that didn’t really serve me, or alcohol, or pretending to be Someone Better Than Who I Was (who was I even?).
When that wasn’t available, I would fill the void with harsh criticisms about the kind of awful person I was.
I really didn’t have a connection with myself at all.
Like, I knew I was “alive”: I could see my body in the mirror, and when people would talk to me, I could hear myself respond.
It kind of felt like I was just a camera lens going around the world, absorbing information around me, and responding to stimuli, almost like how an amoeba is alive but not ALIVE.
I was alive, but I was not alive to myself.
It was a painful place to be because I felt not only alone from other people, but I didn’t even have myself. Looking back, I think I was lonely for myself.
Learning to speak to myself with love, kindness and compassion is one of the greatest gifts that I have ever given myself, because now even when I feel lonely (which by the way is a normal human feeling) I know that I am not alone. I know how to hold space for myself to feel terrible, how to encourage myself, how to pick myself up, how to give myself a little (loving!) kick in the butt when required, and how to ask for help when I can’t.
Because of that, I love me, and I love spending my time with me. Imagine spending your time with your cheerleader and your best friend and someone who always has your back. How awesome is that! I now don’t have any problems going to a show, or a restaurant, or a new class, or spending an afternoon in the park with myself. Often timesI even prefer it!
And because of all of that, my number one biggest passion is helping people develop a relationship with themselves. I believe it’s the most important thing in the world. If you truly have a relationship with yourself, you have the best thing ever: you have YOU!
If this is you, ask yourself what you are waiting for to start loving yourself?
How do you treat the person you love most in the world? What would it looks like to start practising treating yourself that way?
You are so worthy and deserving of love. Go ahead, love yourself <3
And if you want some support doing that, I am here for you.