When you want to and don’t want to do something
Sunday night. We decide we are going to finally finish that work project tomorrow from 8am to 10am and it’s for sure going to get done.
(Then we can enjoy the rest of the week and not keep worrying about it.)
Then 8am Monday comes.
Which of these sound familiar?
🧠I don’t want to.
🧠It’s fine to do it later.
🧠It’s more important to answer these emails.
🧠I don’t have enough energy to do the project, I should wait until tomorrow, then I’ll be able to do it better.
🧠I’m just going to quickly make some tea and then read some news and then I’ll work on it.
Our brains offer us these thoughts and they feel so true.
But it’s not really the truth.
The truth is that you made that plan with your best interest at heart.
The truth is that you DO want to finish it.
You made that decision from a place of love yesterday.
Now you are questioning it because our brain’s default is to be efficient and conserve energy.
So of COURSE it’s going to keep up from doing things that require effort (finishing the work project).
It’s much easier to answer emails, make tea, procrastinate.
Those require less energy.
(Well, they require less energy IN THE MOMENT, but how much energy do we use stressing out about it not being done, beating ourselves up for procrastinating, telling ourselves we never get things done on time, feeling overwhelmed…)
Nothing has gone wrong that your brain wants to conserve energy and deploys thoughts to keep you doing that.
But now you are at the intersection where you can honour your past decision made from love, or listen to your primitive brain’s default dialogue.
Many of us are very practiced at living in default mode listening to our default dialogue.
So it makes sense that we would be good at that.
But we can start practising honouring our past decisions now.
What if it’s ok that your brain says “I don’t want to”, because you can decide on purpose: “thank you for your input, but actually, I really do want to”?
What would your life look like if you made decisions for yourself from love and then honoured them?
You have totally got this, beautiful.
Alana